Sometimes Sinner, Sometimes Saint

This is the post I’ve alluded to a bit in previous ones, where I will opine my (likely unasked-for) thoughts on friendships and that whole barrel of monkeys. Unfortunately, I’m writing this coming off of the breakup of my first dating relationship, so if I was cynical at any point, I ask forgiveness. I’ll probably wind up editing what follows this paragraph about half-a-bajillion times before I click Publish, indeed, it’s late enough I probably won’t even finish it the night I’m starting it (2:39AM CDT on Thursday the 14th of May,) so this might sound chunky, depending on how many times I walk away from it to tend to RL. I’m also quite loopy ATM on account of a wonderful cold I picked up this past weekend visiting my alma mater to watch some friends graduate. (The school’s a diploma-mill, so they’ll have fun finding a job in a good economy, let alone this. I graduated last year and am still unemployed, and while some of my majors were less than “useful,” my third major was Computer Information Systems, and I don’t think anyone can argue that that’s something theoretically “hire-able.”)

I seriously wish I could just go on voice in SL right now; I have a cold, and my already-normally-low-for-a-female voice sounds like Joan Rivers after a trachiometry. {sp?!} My sister (RL) is calling me “Trachiometry Girl,” but it got her to give me the last of the ice cream in the house, so yay!

I wish WordPress had something like LiveJournal’s LJ-cuts; this would be a good entry for them.

Today…OK, tonight at like 3AM CST, I signed up for the Undercity RPG. I’m giving my character an age upgrade, 12, because I figured by that point IRL I was more or less speaking as I do now and thus would not have to worry so much about slipping out of voice in a literal sense, not just OOC slips. Yeah, the character is very much a Mary-Sue, but this is my first “real” RPG attempt, and to start I figure I have to play what I know. The turning point of her character honestly is what I think would be the crux for me had I been in that situation as a child: all her (admittedly short) life thus far, she’d trusted adults, be it parents, teachers, whatever. Her peers were cruel to her and she had little interest in having anything to do with them whatsoever. Now, though, after Zero Hour, those same peers are all she has— her very survival depends on the very same people she never would have trusted to safeguard a penny before. Well, that’s roughly what’s on the character sheet, and that needs to be approved by the Powers That Be. I hope this is something I can have fun with, and it’ll give me a reason to log in as Janet more often. However, I will say right now that things with my main av will trump, so if I have to work where that av works, I’ll be there, regardless of what is going on in Undercity. I pretty much have to have that rule, because any Lindens Janet has are from the other av, and yeah I get the L$50/active-week stipend because my av is…old (Arianna Pinkerton is one of the few I’ve encountered in SL kid-dom older than that avatar,) but I like the extra income. (OK, it’s tips and some of it does go back into the club, but you know what I mean.) RL, naturally, also trumps, and given that between now and July I am attempting to relocate with a friend from college to a city 7 hours plus from where I am now, things may get hectic. I’ve lived in the same house my entire life and this’ll be a far more substantial uprooting than college was! Eep! Pray for this effort, if you are so inclined! Danke! [/sidenote]

OK, it’s 4:35AM CST…I should probably sleep… Oyasuminasai! ^_^