Sometimes Sinner, Sometimes Saint

So in UC, Murdoch, the 2nd-in-command “superior” to my character, managed to get himself into another fight tonight (Monday). Being the “I-want-to-protect-everyone” girl that she is, she gets involved. She can now add “poison-knife scar” to her list of battle scars, but the fight wasn’t as eventful as the last. That’s fine, though, really. It had its purpose in the plot, and that’s the important part. Read the rest of this entry »

So Undercity was kinda frustrating today in the getting-everyone-I-need-for-my-character-on-at-once sort of way. Out of the blue, I get an IM from one Koffeekid Smalls. He answered one of the questions I’d posed in this blog before, once again amazing me that anyone actually reads my rambling. (I do this as much to organize my own thoughts as anything else. Most of my RL “world” doesn’t “get” why I like the internet as I do, let alone why I’d even play Second Life, let alone again why I’d do so as a kid, so I can’t just vent on my RL blogs. Ever since I was an RL kid, writing things out helped me process them. ADD = thousands of threads screaming in the brain at once, and writing lets me grab one thread and focus on it.) Anyway. Then he asks me if I want to go visit his SL “home.” He TPd me over and I got to meet his SL-cousin, Adz, who I’ve met before, though not in that “role,” and his SL-mother, who again I’m pretty sure I’ve seen before, I think at a set her SL-husband did when I was a pretty new alt. It was kind of funny to meet someone who’s been in SL even longer than I have. XD Anyway, so I got to see parts of the house, and it’s HUUUUUUUUUUGE!!!!!! I’m continually amazed at the size of builds people pull off in SL. I tried to build a “book” for Mal, a 6-year-old Kitty-Fang in Undercity, to “learn to read” with, and that was, for me, a pain, and it’s just a flat box with a texture from The Cat in the Hat on it. Anyway. So Koffee and Adz showed me the family room, which had RL photos of everyone, and that was cool, though RL pictures in SL confused my brain every now and again, (doesn’t take much =-p ), and then I got to see the boys’ bedroom, which was neater than any RL boy’s room I’ve ever seen. XD (To match some of the guys I went to college with would, I think, involve enough prims to crash the sim. =-p ) Adz had Scouts today, and he must have eaten a lot of cookies, because he was bouncing off the walls, the ceiling, and everything else. It reminded me of Girl Scouts when I was an RL kid (I did that 1st grade through 4th,) and at the end of the day, my Ritalin was always wearing off, so some poor mom got to deal with me unmedicated, and I’ll be the first to admit I was a handful! XD So eventually he crashed off of sugarness, and logged off soon thereafter. Koffee and I talked about random stuffs. Apparently he read one of the same book series as a kid that I did, The Baby-Sitters Club, which I read just about every last book of, I think. Religion even came up at one point, and I normally can be kinda…hmmm…good word…”aggressive” will have to do at almost 2AM, in my “zeal” for my own faith, but the brain-mouth filter showed a random act of…function…please English, stop falling out of my brain, kthxbai! X_X Anyway, it was really cool, but then Koffee crashed because…SL’s Murphy’s Law said he had to, I think…I dunno. Anyway, I think his mom realized he’d logged off, probably because there was this lone green dot, a non-friend, i.e. me, where the yellow dot of her son had been, so she came up to make sure I was “alright,” I guess. I waited about half an hour, since I got tied up in some IMs anyway right after he crashed (actually, I think he might have frozen up before being logged, because he stopped responding kinda out of the blue.)

Oh yeah…Undercity should be interesting this week…Murdoch’s going to declare war yet again, I think, and there’s something at stake this time that means enough to my character that she will likely not argue him. She has her priorities, I guess. That girl basically “lives” on a partition of my own brain, like she’s a virtual machine, kinda. (Yes, I do have to geekify everything.) What’s annoying is when her emotions start to bleed through to me. I had one night I didn’t sleep a wink because the character had about a million thoughts in her brain and I couldn’t turn it “off.” (I also had a cold, but I was pretty much over it by that point.) My character’s like half me at 12, half me now, with a smattering of this, that, and whatever. She’s more contemplative than I was at that age, I think, but the nature of the RP almost dictates that she’d have to be. I also did a bit of “wishful thinking” with her, in that I gave her basically perfect parents, whereas I, the woman behind the keyboard, grew up in a house that would charitably be described as “emotionally abusive.”

Question of the moment (week, month, whatever I feel like): for those who do any kind of RP in SL (i.e. it’s not just a 3D chatroom for you, like it mainly is for me with my other avatar,) what kind of “limits” do you have, and why? I’ll start with one example: I would never consent to an RP situation, even in a place as grisly as Undercity, that involved my character, or any other character, being raped or anything like that. Besides the LL rules against child avatars and things sexual, there’s just some things that I think aren’t…appropriate, proper, something like that, to RP. I have 2 friends IRL who have been raped and one more sexually assaulted (that I know of,) and I went to high school with a schmuck who sexually harassed every girl in our instrument’s section except for me, (thanks be to God,) so that, to me, is just too serious to “trivialize” by using it in RP. Still, that’s my personal RP limit; what anyone else does is between them and whatever divinity they worship, even if that divinity is nothing more than themselves. I can only pray and do what I think is right, “lead by example,” I guess.

OK, I’m starting to make more and more mistakes, so I think it’s time for me to stop rambling and just post the dang thing.

(One aspect of this post reflective of how I wrote as an RL kid: paragraphs were my enemy, especially when typing! XD )

Nini!

*Shifty eyes* I know someone is reading this, because this blog was quoted at the Milk ‘N’ Kookies exhibit at SL6B. (I’d provide a SLurl, but I’m not in-world right now.) Whee!

Quotes regarding the Milk 'N' Kookies show from its exhibit at SL6B

As I presume is wide public knowledge by now, (for starters, it was talked about on The Milk ‘N’ Kookies Show,) Plinker Blinker {sp?} was permabaned from SL. I knew yesterday that her stores in Undercity had been banlined, but since they’d been just that, I thought it’d all work out. I didn’t realize at that point that she’d been banned for good. Rai, the Underground (aka Undercity,) sim’s owner and bill-payer, was naturally not thrilled that Linden Labs just put up ban lines and didn’t even tell him. Plinker’s now on K-Grid and supposedly is planning on moving her operations over there.

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OK, I stand corrected that Undercity for Wednesday was a bust. After I finished an IC-conversation with Josh, (which gives my character some context for other stuff going on; before she was in the dark,) I notice traffic gathering around rAg tower. I hit the elevator, go down there, and see a fight going on. A launch on the de-ruthing rocket later, where I can actually SEE avatars, my character joins in. Murdoch was being beaten up on some bad info, (long story,) but my character’s young brain doesn’t process much beyond, “Friend being beaten up, idiots standing by watching, must do something.” Well, she manages to keep Lars and Enz distracted, which worked well for the fight. OH MY GOSH it had my heart pounding for REAL! I mean I was PUMPED in my real-world body, adrenaline kicking, all that. The adrenaline, though, I think did really help with getting into my character’s “mindset,” because she’s going to have a lot more of it going through her, since the guns pointed at her can kill. (Got a shot though Lars’ arm and got a bullet to buzz just by Enz’s ear! Epic awesome win! XD)

So yeah, uber-excited for tomorrow. Sooooo glad I got involved with Undercity. ^_^ I get why games like DnD are always so popular. (Though having to do combat totally in text does have its drawbacks, but oh well.)

OK, 3AM I really should be asleep…must calm down…*deep breath*

Oyasuminasai! [Good night!]

Blah…after last night’s mess, plus some drama this afternoon, darn near no one’s in Undercity period, let alone wanting to RP. RP’d with Luneris (”Koji”) and Tearroar (”Sebastian”) some, but I’m not terribly important to the story line of either, (and I don’t mean that in a bad way or to be complaining—just a simple statement of fact,) so it didn’t really go anywhere. Folks important to my storylines were mostly MIA, though I did get some good RP out of Koji and Sebastian. (Basically, some little-voice-in-the-back-of-the-head doubts my character had were put to rest.)

I REALLY hope things are back to normal by tomorrow. =-(

Alright, this’ll probably be borderline ranting, but here goes.

So Undercity got “griefed” Tuesday night, the 16th of June. Some random lady comes into rAg tower, while I was AFK, (but I got the chatlog,) takes a shot of a picture in there, and ARs it. OK, whatever. If she’d done what I’ve done on the RARE (seriously, like 3 times since I joined in 2005,) occasions I’ve ARd something, TPed out and let the Lindens handle it, would have been a normal evening and I could have had some fun RP. We all could have. But nope, apparently that wasn’t good enough for her or the guy she was with.
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In the space of one week, I’ve gone from being pretty much universally ignored in Undercity to my character being hazed into rAg. (The av’s 12, before anyone gets any twisty ideas. Freaks. =-p )
One character I’ve met this week I’ve also talked to some in IM, OOC, and he seems pretty cool. Yay making friends!

I’ve learned I should never, EVER, listen to The Milk ‘N’ Kookies Show when everyone else in this house is asleep. I always wind up laughing too hard! XD (In case I’ve not mentioned it before, due to this lovely economy IRL and my subsequent unemployment (Job fair coming up, targeted towards the specific industry I’m looking for work in! Prayers appreciated for those so inclined!) I still live with my parents. All SL activities, especially those as Janet, have to be “under the hood” to my parents. That’s why very few have ever heard me speak on voice. (Sok, Wlfric, and whoever else we were playing SL-Monopoly one day have, but I had a cold, so I probably sounded like a dude,) and why I’m on at odd hours. Total side note, I’d thought about asking them if I could introduce my youngest sister, 16, to Teen SL, but now that there’s rumors of the teen and adult grids being combined, there ain’t no way in Hades I’m doing that. Note that, Lindens. If there’s a chance in Hades of my sister being exposed to a Gorean, it ain’t worth it. (Yeah, she can’t get onto the adult continent, but there ain’t a single Linden rule saying that those folks have to stay on that continent.)) OK, breaking out of the parenthetical comment before I drive myself crazy, but staying on that thought, part of me hopes that, since the adult continent will require age verification, (see this post on the Linden blog for details,) maybe that’ll be enough to keep some folks off of that continent. It’s easier to, ahem, indulge (I prefer the word “sin,” but…oh screw it, if I’m going to get flamed, I’ll get flamed either way,) in those sorts of things when you feel it’s 100% anonymous—after all, you even created a “secret” G-mail address just for this, right? (Insert comments about secrets and Google here.) However, since requiring age verification will require some real life personally identifying information, the person just might think the better of it. Well, that’s my hope, anyway. In a perfect world, no one would be twisted enough to create that content to begin with. (And dude, you can’t call it censorship of thought when I’m talking about the thought never existing to begin with. That’s like murdering someone who’s never been conceived.)

Sometimes I wonder if I’m too “conservative” to make it in most of the “kids community”…(Politics, for what it’s worth, are (in the USA) either the Republican party or the Constitution party, whichever candidate I like better of the two. I’ve also done write-ins, not of the Micky-Mouse variety.)

Controversial material to follow:
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